Surrounded By Me

Goldfrapp “A&E” (Live on Fair Game)

What happens if you feel desperate and alone, and you go about doing the things that your culture suggests that you do to correct your situation, and you still can’t make it happen? You can’t get him to call back, you derive no pleasure from going out, and the drugs just make you feel worse. You come in late from another boring night, and everyone you know has paired off, but you fall into your bed alone. You lie there half-awake as the morning light floods your room, and you’re still clutching your cell phone, hoping for some impossible moment of affirmation and affection. You start to wonder how it is that you came to need someone so badly, and if the person you’re pining for means much of anything, or if he’s just another arbitrary attachment. There’s no answer, no reasonable explanation, just this immense void of longing and doubt, and this horrible fear that things will never change. Other people can connect, other people can be loved, but all you can do is crumble and weep. It’s not fair.

Buy it from Amazon. Originally posted on February 18th, 2008.